This area of work is all about clearing your false,
borrowed-from-the-culture, inauthentic eroticism. Don't worry -
there's the real truth of your eroticism, the real juice of your
sexuality on the other side of this stuff. Just we have to get
past the projections, associations and other nonsense.
There's no point in objecting to your erotic state
of affairs, The veils won't fall away on account of you arguing
that it's your mama, papa or culture's fault. Step one is acceptance
that the situation is as it is. Your mind is as resistant as it
is, and the healing force of your eroticism challenges that resistance.
A useful koan for this stage of the journey is: What
is, is. And - What isn't, isn't.
The objective of this stage of work is twofold -
awareness of how you're eroticism - and moving into the erotic
experiences that help that awareness by moving through the layers
of repression.
This next exercise can be very confronting if you've
always lived with strong taboos on nudity. If you aren't totally
comfortable with being naked, being with someone else who's naked,
or if nudity's got an intensely erotic kick for you, this exercise
is strongly recommended.
It has the twofold aim I've mentioned -it will raise
your awareness of your obstacles to your being comfortably, naturally
naked, and at the same time, evoke your erotic responses to nudity,
providing you the opportunity to become aware of them.
Visual Communion, naked gazing.
Make a comfortable sitting arrangement. While clothed,
get really comfortable, using cushions to support the body as required.
Sit so that the closest parts of your body (knees) are half a metre
or so apart. Visually, the whole body of the partner should be
comfortably within your field of vision.
Get into the position you've established, this time,
unclothed. However your body is, just is. Aroused, not aroused,
feeling tingling, alive, or numbed. Just how it is.
Close your eyes for a few minutes, just feel your
body, sitting. Feel into your body, adjust your position for more
comfort if necessary, get comfortably still, then open your eyes.
Let the gaze flow over the beloved. Don't resist
eye-contact, don't get locked into it either. Just a second or
two, noticing the eyes, like you notice anything else, then move
on. When you feel your eyes stop, shocked, or fixating, move them
gently along, over the body in front of you.
Restrict your movement to sitting, aware of tensions
that arise in the body, and not resisting them. Let your breath
move freely. You may breathe very slowly, or stop for a while every
now and again. You may also pant.
Whatever sensations
arise in your body, don't resist. There's no rules for how you
should feel. Responses vary from feeling a fearfulness, an urge
to hide, a shrinking, all the way through to feeling aroused,
even really intensely. In some schools, this exercise is taught
with the objective of going so deep into the visual experience
of the beloved that orgasm or ejaculation happens.
Allow a half hour to an hour for this exercise. Even
if you find it really highly "charged", or scary, just remember
you're doing nothing really weird, you were born naked, and under
your clothes, you are always naked.
Recommended pages at meditate.co.za: Clearing
Other exercises and meditations recommended:
Try writing some erotic short stories.
Go deeply into your fantasies, and love yourself.
A few times a day.
Active meditations, especially Osho's
Kundalini Meditation are of great use at this stage. osho.co.za , osho.com and
our events page list
venues where this happens in South
Africa, around
the world, and at our
venue.
